i miss her

i miss how complete i felt with her in my arms

her beautiful naked body

breathing

pulsing

alive.

i miss her angel soft skin

her perfect scent.

i miss the time we had alone

uninfluenced

undisturbed.

i miss just watching

as she lay besides me

feeling my blood get warm

and melt my heart.

conflicted

because any thought longer reminds me of the whole

it makes me feel ill

i used to think i was one of the strongest people i know..

sad, longing, angry.